[kengohchien]

Hi everyone. Thanks for the replies again.

Flowbow

i agree completely with what you've said, but it hurts.
any niceness he shows to you has nothing to do with love and everything to do with lust
Yes. so true. whatever he says or does, somehow i keep reminding myself that he may just be lying or doing something just to gain favour for more sex. (because we don't really have sex that frequently).

ColourBlindx2
Sorry to hear you've been through so much pain. i hope you've moved on completely.

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Against my more rational self, i met up with him again today and we had sex.
I don't quite know how to describe my emotions. Strangely, i think i am ok.
Well.... the good sex could be a factor. satiated naybe.

it's almost 3.30am and i'm a bit brain dead.
and i have 12 hours to think about whether to repeat it tomorrow.