[hbk88]

for the past 7 months, i had only been visiting her, weekly. i really started to fall in love with her. . . but the thing is that i dont know whether is it just because i am lonely . . . basically our communication not very good, and i dont think she like me at all

she rarely calls me, its me the only one who initiate calls to her every night before she sleeps, and when i overslept and didnt wake up to call her, she doesnt seem to be bothered at all. i did talk to her about this issue, she say she will call me if i happened to overslept, she never does that.

i often confront her and beg her to tell me whats her true feeling for me, she always say she really loved me, only me, but she dont even call me =( she only start to text or call me when i MIA for like 2 weeks or when i make noise saying she dont love me and blah, the reason she gave its because she also dont know what to say when she call me due to language barrier. when i accuse her of her treating me only as a regular customer and she dont love me, she keep asking me why i think like that etc etc. she also never take the initiate to jio me out during her offday =( she is also quite an popular girl in the house, whereas i am just a dork . .

seriously thinking i think the chances of her really liking me very very low . . . the only thing is that she will never refuse to pick up my calls, and never fail to call me back if i miss called her. whenever we quarrel or got some issues, she will keep calling me over and over again. she will also secretly check my bag and handphone when i was bathing as well. she also keep ask me to go pick up thai language . . .

she never ask gift from me though, neither did she give any to me. i think she is just treating me like a regular customer, how do you bros think about it? i think im really stupid lah, but just dont have the courage =( i really miss her everyday alot. i am thinking of visiting her the last time, and going for a final breakoff =(

bros . . i think i really need help =( i been reading all the threads for very very long, very often its always a tragic end. how do i forget her? im afraid i will do something foolish