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This time I went to Pattaya in a tired mood, needing time to relax not partying. I took the aircon bus from Ekkamai bus terminal in Bangkok (at Ekkamai BTS station) for 128 baht, busses leave every 20 minutes or so. The bus takes about 90 minutes to get to the terminal in Pattaya, where there are baht busses waiting. Just get in the back of one and pay 20 baht when you drop off. They go all the way down Beach Road and back up 2nd Road.

I asked to be dropped at Soi 6, and the driver let me know when we got there. Walked up to Queen Victoria Inn. Clean, totally guest-friendly, 700 baht a night.

Last time here I stopped at Lick Bar, where you can get BJ for 700 baht in the bar. I encountered a babyfat girl of 20, looking as if sugar wouldn't melt in her mouth. Her BJ was amateurish, but her friendliness more than made up for it. (I FR about this before.)

This time I went straight back to Lick Bar and looked for her. Another cute little piranha swooped down on me, my girl was more retiring and I had to seek her out. But I did spot her, and asked her to come inside with me. I offered her a drink and she had nam som. Mamasan said she doesn't drink alcohol. After a bit of smiling and gazing into each other's eyes, I asked her if she would come to sleep with me at the hotel. She shyly agreed. I paid 500 baht to the bar, and she said that she wants 1000 baht. Yes, you read that right.

She changed into shorts and black Minny Mouse t-shirt, and now looked exactly like a very cute, lively, brighteyed young girl at a market or a mall. Miles away from what a Pattaya bargirl is supposed to look like. On the way out, all the girls gave her a send-off with shouts and laughing, high-five style slapping hands, obscene hand symbol (one mimes the hole, the other sticks her finger in), I also had to participate.

With me, she is friendly, and incredibly patient with my useless Thai. I say that I'm hungry, and she takes me to a cheap little place around the corner where the girls eat. Then we go walk along the beach, which is mostly deserted by now. Walk quietly and slowly in the shallow water, she finding little fishes to tease and shells to pick up .. then sit on the beach and she tells me about Loy Krathong and other things (in little pieces of English, Thai and sign language).

Then we head back to the hotel, reception takes her ID but is perfectly courteous toward her, and we retire to the room.

There I was disappointed that she didn't want to shower together with me. But I realised gradually that she is genuinely very awkward and shy. Also she's shy of her body, because she's not skinny. But she's not a fat skinny girl. She's a lovely round girl in perfect health, everything firm, gorgeous boobs, firm ass ..

In the course of the night she became less shy. In the morning we had a last (3rd) round, with her sitting on top of me, which she initiated after we'd already gotten dressed. When I came back from the shower, she'd made the bed and laid out my clothes neatly. We finally left the room at 11:30AM. I gave her all the cash I had with me, only about 1500 baht, which she never counted. We went out to look for breakfast, and she stopped at two pharmacies looking for something. It turned out to be some plasters, which she bought for me, because I'd nicked myself. We had chicken rice .. then we parted and I watched her merge with the languid black-haired crowd ..

This place is heartbreaking. Dreams come true, whether they are nightmares or fantasies, and someone pays the price, which is not the money. Now this lovely, gentle girl is haunting me. I don't want her to stay there. I don't even want to go find her again. What possessed her to go and work there (I know, I know). Try to cause no harm.